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Wednesday, 07 October 2009

"We'd hit the bottom
I thought it was my fault
And in a way I guess it was
I'm just now finding out
What it was all about

We moved to the west coast
Away from everyone
She never told me that you called
Back when I was still
I was still in love

Til I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's bye-bye
Goodbye, I tried
And I twisted it wrong just to make it right
I had to leave myself behind
And I've been flying high all night
So come pick me up
I've landed

The daily dramas
She made from nothing
So nothing ever made them right
She liked to push me
And talk me back down
Until I believed I was the crazy one
And in a way I guess I was

When I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's bye-bye
Goodbye, I tried
Treading the sea of her troubled mind
Had to leave myself behind
Singing bye-bye
Goodbye, I tried

If you wrote me off
I'd understand it
'Cause I've been on
Some other planet
So come pick me up
I've landed

And you will be so
Happy to know
I've come alone
It's over

I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's bye-bye
Goodbye, I tried
Down comes the reign of the telephone czar
It's ok to call
I will answer for myself
Come pick me up
I've landed"
-Ben Folds, "Landed"

Some people may think it's weird that that song describes my summer almost perfectly, but somehow, it does.

Tuesday, 03 June 2008

random thoughts in anger and frustration

what I do know is that brokenness and humbleness is beautiful, and freeing, and that is the place where God can take you and lift you up and surround you with his love, and make you know that everything will be allright, no matter what comes your way, or has come your way. i know it's scary, but i make myself do it, cuz i want more than just 'OK' in my life. I want health and freedom and serenity and peace. I want a healthy relationship, i want a best friend who trusts me and that i can tell anything and everything to.
I know that's what I need in my life. Someone who knows who they are (in Christ), and is OK with whatever God has for them.
this (crap) has given me an opportunity to focus back on God and this proves to me once again that whenever i try to do things my way, for any selfish reason that it blows up in my face. the only way to peace and serenity is to lay myself on God's altar, to say 'here I am Lord, do with me what you will', and then just keep asking what his will is for my life.
i'm confused. i don't know where to go from here. i don't have any answers right now.

so there.

~teresa
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Wednesday, 28 November 2007

Everything

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
(Lifehouse)
my dear friend Mark just sent me some videos featuring this song. God is sooo good to me. I've just said no to another relationship, because his relationship with Christ wasn't there. It's sad and it hurts, and I wonder how many times it's going to happen like this. and will there ever be someone? ...and those words were exactly what I needed right now. to remind me of how faithful He is, and He really is all I need - He is everything...

Tuesday, 06 November 2007

Freedom

freedom feels so good. freedom from oppression. freedom is not free. discipleship is not easy. we must discipline ourselves. draw near to the Lord, and he will draw near to you.
the cleansing stream retreat was so good. i have to hang on to this freedom. i love the fellowship of the Lord, but I have to work at maintaining it. It's so easy to let the world in and eat up your time and mind. but NO! this is worth it. there is no freedom without him. Perfect peace is in Him. why would I want to be anywhere else?
†.

p.s. it's my birthmonth - which always puts me in a good mood. but it's too warm for november. it's weird. i got a letter from canada. that made my day.
pps. 2nd Timothy is an awesome book. Oh, so is JOB. cool dude.

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